March 27, 2012- How many times have I started a date similar to this. This is the first day of the rest of my life, this is the date I start my weight loss goals, etc, etc, etc....But I want this date to be different! I want to be a different person! I want to be a better more, active person!

Let's see where this date takes me.

I am 33 almost 34. I have 2 sons and at the moment not working. I am over weight, by a lot, prob. like 150 pounds over weight. I am about 5'6 and weigh 297.

Like most others I have struggled with my weight. I was a healthy active child, but as the years went by different situations happened and I packed on the pounds.

Brief history, as a child I was sexually assaulted by a cousin. I went through a self destructive phase, as I call it now, at 13 I started having sex with older guys. I was married at 17, this was something that I don't regret. I was in love. Had my first son at 20. Marriage getting a little rocky, but I continue on. Second son at 23. By the time my second son was a year to a year and a half marriage had fallen apart. Divorced Feb. 2004. More self destructive behavior with ex and others between the years of 2004-2007. Moved up to Texarkana for a brief time, just me and my sons, we did ok by ourselves, I stopped the self destruct behavior. Moved back after my mom got "sick".  Fast forward to 2010 where I find out I have a Chairi Malformation. I have the decompression surgery. Couple of years later and I am sitting here trying to do a blog to see if this will help me. As time goes by I may or may not go into detail some of that crap that's happened. Blah Blah Blah bullshit!


Ok, so back to this is the first day crap. I haven't exercised in a very long time. I have started stuff but haven't followed through. Like walking at the track or buying zumba fitness cd's and never using them. So along with trying to eat healthier, I am also going to try and exercise for at least 30 mins a day. I will try to do more but at this point 30 mins sounds like a good starting point.  :)


Ta Ta for now :)